
And I'm 12 1/2 lbs down.
Yesterday, I had the amazing experience of not eating all my food - it seemed to be too much for me. "So", said Mr TBAM (150 lbs since the day I married him..), "Don't eat it all." It hadn't occurred to me. After all, this was the food they were giving me. I had to eat it all, right? Just shows my screwed up relationship with food.
So I gave the second chop and potatoes to my daughter, who declared them delicious.
Things I am noticing1. Despite losing 12 lbs, I am still fat. Since I was a good 10 lbs over my previously high weight when I started this thing, this should not be surprising to me. And yet it is. I feel so good, I am shocked to look in the mirror and see that I still have a long way to go.
2. You know how we all complain about how fast time flies? Well, go on a diet and weigh yourself every day. Time will CRAWL, I promise you. This is one of the good things about dieting. Slowing down time.
3. The way I feel at this weight today on the way down is vastly different then how I felt at this weight on the way up. Why is that?
4. My ankles have pretty much stopped swelling. Must be the bike riding. (
Bardiac cries "Yes!")
The challengeI am heading out tomorrow for a 2 week vacation. (Part of the reason blogging has been so scarce - I'm trying to get things done before we leave. I promise I'll get back to blogging once I get caught up.)
That means no delivered food, and keeping to the program while on the road for a week looking at colleges, then for a week at the cottage. I decided I am schlepping the scale along with me and weighing myself daily. I am also going to keep a food diary. Any other suggestions for eating on the road would be welcome.
I've done fine so far on the two weekends I was away at our cottage and cooking for myself, so I'm not too worried about that part of vacation. I'm actually looking forward to creating and cooking new foods.
But even if I screw up, I know that once I return, I'm back on the food delivery program. And that is so very reassuring to me. It also fits right in with what I've been reading about in
Beck's book on cognitive thinking and dieting. That we need to get out of the perfectionist mode with dieting. Going off a diet is not a failure, and doesn't need to turn into a downward spiral of eating out of control. You just get right back on the wagon.